Hugs to you. I'm sorry your struggling today. I'm getting by on my 15 minute rule...get through 15 minutes and then restart, just get what I can done in 15 minutes, I usually feel better about myself if I can accomplish something during that 15 minutes, if I don't get anything completed I just start over again and again. It helps me to not think about getting through till the end of the day, just look at 15 minutes at a time or 30 whatever works