i know this isnt as serious as some of the other things here but in the last two years ive been at high school and im happy i love my friends and my personality is there completely and there are no problems but before i came to high school whenever i spoke to some one my personality would be there always if you know what i mean but now my personality only comes out with my friends or when im around a few select people. for example in the first few days of school i only spoke to some people because i was having these boring generic conversations that was completely not me and its not that i wasnt confident because i was making an effort my brain just wasnt working in a sense. i was in a situation where i was in class one week and most of my friends were with me and there was another girl that i dont usually talk to and we were all talking and she seemed to like my personality and i felt comfortable talking around her but the second everyone else left i couldnt think of anything to say i dont get it she liked my personality why couldnt i talk to her. when i meet people for the first time its like a lucky dip some i can talk to some i like and want to talk to but i cant and i just go quiet my personality is gone. ive also noticed since 2 years ago that i cant get angry at a person or be mean at someone i dont like or stand up for myself when someone else isnt there and i want to but my brain just locks up. sometimes with some of my friends my personality locks up a bit but rarely. im concerned that in the fuure and at the moment that i cant talk to people how am i going to work to stand up for myself its not that im not confident i am i just cant think of anything is this an actual problem am i just over thinking it or what should i do?
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