Ahhhh [emoji20] This hurts my heart Fuzzy. You absolutely don't deserve to be hurt! You are a beautifully unique individual who is special because you are you. No one else in this whole world can claim the same thing. No one can be you.
Yes, you're right. People can be... sigh! Ughhh.... so hurtful. But it's my experience that the more hateful they are, the more they actually hate themselves. They are merely translating this hate onto you. It helps to view these ones with pity. Don't allow their toxic behaviour in your life, but view them at arms length with pity and compassion.

And also, give yourself some compassion. If your best and dearest and oldest friend came to you and said they were worthless, what would you say?
I'm sure you would have compassion and love for them.
Now imagine YOU are your dearest and oldest friend. Try to treat yourself with the same compassion and love. [emoji169]