I was just having a very bad day when I made this post.

I am going to try to do things the right way for the most part. I'm going to try to be a decent person and prove that I can be strong.

However, if I become at risk of homelessness or get into any real danger, I'm leaving nothing to chance. I am tapping into my inner darkness to get myself back ahead no matter the cost. I refuse to be at another human being's mercy no matter what ever again because doing so has proven detrimental in the past.

I won't get to that point unless people genuinely don't care about me and want to give me a chance, either in the form of a job or help getting my needs met. If that happens than it will prove my point right that nobody cares unless there is something in it for them. If that happens, then you bet that I am striking back against the same society that brings so many of my fellow outcasts pain without mercy.

But like I said, I'm going to try to do the right thing first and foremost. After all, I want to be proven wrong because I would rather not live life in the shadows anymore if I don't have to.