I think my eardrum is bursting but I can't drive to go to the doc I don't think they can do anyth for me anyway.

Saw Duchess. She cried. She said no to the hotel idea, that that would be running and I'm trying to run away from "my friends" but they will just follow me. I told her if I could there are a couple I would just leave with her. I love her, it's stupid. My ear hurts my soul hurts and my house is a disaster (not of my doing.) my instructions we're to go home take your sedative and go to sleep.