Doglover..I wonder if you are my son? (I know your not)

I wonder if I would have judged your story if my son was not addicted to heroin?

My son was off heroin for 2 years as well and I when I myself was dragged out in bed half dead recovering after I relapsed on alcohol...he said to me

"Mom I did dope today".

My heart broke for him...the stigma of heroin makes the problem and I'm sure the feeling of relapse so much worse...

Don't beat yourself up...because then it drags you down more (at least alcohol does that to me)...start using to feel better when in actuality you feel worse.

I pray you have something touch you that gives you the "fight"....I had the "fight" in me for 8 years I was sober....drinking last 3....beating my brain and my body and my self image to literal DEATH.

And for some reason we don't care when we reach that point. I DO THINK...if you have an opportunity for rehab.....GO...I wish my son had an opportunity...he has to work too much...2 kids...a wife...and no medical cause its Landscaping....SO....take advantage of any help.

EVEN if it didn't take or you didn't find the path yet....its more days away and more seeds planted.