i will talk with him about this tomorrow... but unsure how to ask about other touch stuff, i feel if i say i want to work on others, it will come off sounding sexual, which is the last thing i'd even want right now anyway, i'd run away screaming lol

i honestly would probably cry trying to hold his hand, just thinking of that gives me anxiety, i am not sure i can ever do that with anyone.

i am glad to know i am not alone though, i feel nuts and there is not much on google about this issue.

the hugs are a good small step but I'm still overthinking and anxious about it, i want to be able to just be in the moment and experience it, hopefully someday i can