I had therapy today - I had emailed her the same original post i put here and then told her the forgotten update. She kept looking at me so intently - I didn't know what to say. I gues i was supposed to process that with feelings or something, but I didn't understand and couldn't have accessed that anyway. It was uncomfortable. She said i was under too much stress at work currently and not getting enough sleep, so she was "book marking" this and we;d come back to it later to focus in depth. Oh goodie, i can hardly wait.
At this point it's just all kind of numb. When i was dealing with the constant flashbacks, everything seemed like crisis. Now, i'm just numb to it and look at the list and go "yep. so."
Kiya