justnow...I say do whatever works. Your post yesterday ...you are ready to do this....and you are determined.

All of the things you mentioned...that are going on....my life is similar....something is always going wrong...son is having seizures...other son police called me tonight..I'm away from the person I love...I paid the IRS 20KKKKKKKK......and I GOT DRUNK....and then..after about 8 days of that...I ended in the hospital AGAIN....

My General Dr...said to me when I was crying about all this in her office...YES, MISSY you have ALOT going on..but you have the disease of alcoholism which makes you think of all the reasons to DRINK....(I was glad she didn't call them excuses because I could have stopped listening at that point).

But she said START THINKING OF REASONS WHY YOU SHOULDNT DRINK.

I have plenty...I don't know how old you are...I don't know if you know that you are an alcoholic..and most people won't say to you that you are...but I am saying you ARE.

Alcoholism progresses to hell on earth..and try to remember what my Dr. said....

ps..YES, you have alot going on and I hope you didn't lose this woman..later on is later on..you said this was only a short time ago the break up...you have to really put your drinking plan above anything else and then things do work out.