Light bulb moment FM,

I figured out why the gravity to old ways. I am a bit anxious about starting the third leg of my journey. It's time to get serious, because i ned it for the last leg of this journey to come to fruition. I have always hated preparation, and like to go blindly into things, so if it fails I had know expectation of self or others. No, that's not true. I sat out of life for those reasons, but, I'll get serious and dive in. I can't fear the end, because this becomes a launch pad for what you and others have said is the next phase. My couch is calling me home, but I have to attend to big girl stuff first. I think I will send twin emails to you and standby therapist once again. Wish me luck.