T,

It hurts so much to learn from S that you're their therapist. They doesn't know we both see you. My heart hurts. They are a good person. They need you more than me, they have DID...

T, I hope you know they have DID and what you're doing. I hope you still remember the books I quoted on you about DID (when I feared G would see you). S is a good person. They are so much more worthy than me. They deserve so much, T. T, my heart hurts. I'm trying my best not to be possessive and selfish but I feel like I've been stabbed in the heart every time. Will your neutrality shift to dislike if I tell you? Oh I am vile, I know. So unworthy of your care, compassion. You have no idea how painful it was to learn that you would have taken G on if he hadn't given up on the hospital and was instead transferred to you. You've no idea how my selfish evil heart hurts.

They even see you the same day I do. We could actually run into each other in the waiting room despite being on different weeks due to your longstanding scheduling issues with your large caseload.