T,

I'm sad now... I feel like you tricked me into saying something I didn't mean to tell you.

You said that you assume that I'm talking about my experiences. That I must have had a lot of them. Of course I was. You said that it's okay. You also said that the situation has changed and that I'm not dependent on anyone anymore. That it's okay to be angry at people by now because I'm not dependent anymore, that most people'd react in another way. In a good way. I wish you knew how wrong you are...

I know my world view is f... up. I really do.

I do appreciate what you're doing for me though. I sensed today that you're going out of your comfort zone to help me... To help me explain my view of the world. That this was new for you too... So yeah. Thx...

I wanna curl up into a ball now and cry... Becaue you were right at the beginning too... I wouldn't sit in your office twice a week if I were always fine.