But you know what's the worst? When you cannot concentrate at the task at hand, being in a panic attack and unable to remain calm. Example scenario? When paying small change to cashier while being in such a state due to some jerk. You feel as the anxiety and panic build up because you also delay others in line. You reach a drained state where you feel the anger of everyone and think what they would think of you being unable to handle such a simple task that involves elementary math. Being unable to resonate on your level, they are now deeming you as a stupid retard. I had those moments in life and they really affected my sense of self-esteem and confidence levels on a subconscious level since early years.

With every such situation I start thinking of future and being unable to handle such such situation as I wish, what will happen. I don't have girlfriend but what would she think of me seeing how I behave? Or how about such situation at a dating with random encounter with negative Joe Doe? Maybe I think too much but how I behave could determine the outcome of that date or some other important event...

When will humanity get wiser? When will they no longer be self-centered and learn to emphasize and resonate with others? While this gotten better, I feel it will still take some good number of generations...