I have been going thought a horrible time and I can't believe I have to go to work. First - 2 times per year I have to do this thing at work called "emergency". During this time I cannot take leave time. I can take sick time if I am sick, but it is frowned on.

But lately whenever I have these time periods I get sick. I can't tell if it is mental or not but I think so... last time I had to get an operation on my toe... because my doctor was concerned I had melanoma under the toe and told me I couldn't wait.

So there is that. Now I am suffering from what appears to be anxiety to the nth degree. First I have palpitations that started in May. All my doctors test so far have shown nothing to them. But to me it has been horrible. I mean really bad. Then.. I am having trouble sleeping. I mean I wake up 4 times per night no matter how tired I am or Ativan.

My only conclusion is that this is some sort of anxiety attack. But I can't seem to get it under control and I don't know why it is happening. Last night I noticed I am literally ticking at night.. like my hear is pounding so hard it is waking me up.

It is so strange because I feel this must be physical.. I have long felt I had no problems with anxiety but suddenly and without reason I am suffering.