I have learned a lot of things since my depression has left me (not for good but under control). I used to think that the relationship with my mother was stressed because of something that she had done to me. I know this to be untrue now. I used to think that I had no control over the words that left my mouth. I realize now that I thought emotionally not logically. I used to think that the only way to love someone I had to argue with them that way we could make up. I know now that my wife and people that I care about should not be argued with...only loved. I feel the blinders of depression lifted off my eyes and the heavy weight of it lifted off my shoulders.

I can be me and that is the best I can do...I am not going to bend over backwards to make others happy (I will not hurt their feelings but I must make sure I am ok). Everyone here at PC has been great helping me walk down the path of honesty and support. If it had not been for the support of my family, friends and yes everyone here falls into one of those catagories I would still be walking down that dark staircase waiting to fall again. I guess what I am saying is thank you very much. I hope that I can only offer as much support to others here as everyone else has done for me.

You guys at PC are the best. My family deserves a lot of credit too, it is hard to believe (while I was depressed) that people could give all they can to make sure I was feeling better. To my friends, I am sorry if I have pushed some of you away, it was never my intention, you guys mean the world to me (hopefully we can get a game night again or a round of golf). Finally to my wife (if you are reading this) thank you very much for all the support you have given me and thank you for doing what you needed to do, I know it was hard for you but it had to be done. I am not saying I am normal (who defines that anyway) but I do feel much better like I can live my life, like God has given me a second chance to live, love and care.


Thanks,

Dragon