Art, I think you get to decide that things are fixable, not your therapist. If I were you, and you want this to be fixable, go back there and declare it fixable. You get to define you and your path. You're not possessed. You're not a monster. You were triggered. Surely, she can deal with that. It's not like you are a nightmare client like I am. She's lucky that you want to even return to work it out.