Elio, your journey is not easy, but is so worth it to get to the otherside which will brings peace and joys. It sounds like you have a therapist that is willing to go the distance with you. I struggled with the ability to find the words to reveal myself and to be heard, but my therapist lead the way when I couldn't or was just willing to wait patiently as I marked time. Thank you for the courage to share your story. I'm routing for you all the way.