Thank you so much for your kind words, I really appreciate it. I was a nanny for the family for 2 years, I was there to watch him begin to take on personhood and learn to speak. We spent all day every day together during that time. His older brother was severely autistic, so the parents were very often engrossed what was going on with the other child. I almost felt like another mom to him in some ways, which is part of why it was so devistating. He was so young though, I'm really doubtful he'd remember at this point. He would be 7 now. I wasn't that close with the parents because they weren't around much. I think I saw the father from across a grocery store once, but he either didn't recognize me or pretended not to. Honestly, I completely understand why they terminated the relationship the way they did. They could have pressed charges or something and they didn't, and for that I am endlessly grateful. They blocked me on facebook (understandably). I'm not sure if they still live in the same house or not, I could probably write a letter but at this point I'm too afraid to re-open that chapter. Part of me really hopes they forgot about me. I hope they found an amazing person to take over my role and I hope all the time that they are well and happy. Maybe the best thing I can do for them is to just leave them alone, I doubt they would want to revisit that awful day. I can only imagine how terrifying it must have been for them to find me that way. I did send the mom a long apology the day after it happened, and I think maybe in the months that followed I deliberately repressed what she said back to me, because even though I can picture myself opening her text very clearly, I can't remember at all what it said. That may be for the best, too. Someday I'll figure out a way to live with this. I count my blessings every day that no one was hurt and they let me go in peace.

Again, thank you thank you thank you for your kindness.