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I have endured the type of shock and pain you have both in meetings and in my neighborhood...you think people are doing well and boom its a shock and a wake up call...and but for the Grace of God go I...and I do not know why.

Another downer in sobriety you may come across is so many people stop to improve their health and very shortly after come down with some horrible other illness and die...the most I've seen of this is with cancer.

And my sponser died of a very rare deterioation disorder and she was an AA angel saving many lives..I asked her when she told me she was terminal if she was going to drink...and she said NO...she wanted to die sober.

I told her because she was my sponser for over 8 years...(continued to support me even when I drank)...I told her...I WOULD BE DRINKING and I apologized...but I know I would out of fear.

She died sober...and too soon