I can relate SO much to this. I wish there was an easier, more straightforward answer. Therapy has helped in the past, although I can no longer afford it. On occasion, I'll look on youtube for mindful meditation and general self-help videos to help me stay more positive about the future. With certain things, the main thing that has helped has been just giving it time and trying to have some patience. I am not a very patient person though. I empathize completely that this is a really difficult issue.