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Originally Posted by DarknessIsMyFriend
Well then those people are lucky to have others to uplift them. Some of us are alone in this dark lonely world. Those who have a MI, but have wealth as well are also lucky because at least they have more ways to escape from it. Being able to freely eat any food you want, afford any beverage (alcoholic or non), go anywhere you want, and not having to deal with the looming fear of homelessness are all fortunate and worthy of my envy.
If I had wealth and loved ones to support me than 98% of my MI would be a non issue. As it stands though, it really is me vs the rest of this lonely world. After all, it's been proven to me time and time again that nobody gives a damn unless it benefits them.
The darkness is my one and only friend, lover, ally, and protector. The darkness is my source of power and my salvation. Without it, I'm weak, powerless, nothing, and nobody.
Life is my war and death shall be my only solice.
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I'm lucky now that I have loved ones and financial stability. However, there was a point in my life where I was homeless and literally starving as well.
If you have a severe mental illness, the circumstances can be different but the mental illness won't become a non issue. If circumstances were all it took to cure mental illness, people would never relapse once they start getting their lives in order.
I think you're having a very "grass is so much greener and shinnier" on the other side mindset due to where you are in life right now, but if in the future your circumstances change you might then realize that mentall illness doesn't just magically go away.
Also you were just writing a post not that long ago about how you were sad because you lost someone who helped you and cared about you when they didn't have to go to the extent they did. Keeping yourself in a dark mindset is a very snug security blanket, but I hope some day you'll be able to see how much it limits yourself too.