This mindset does the exact opposite of limit me. Because of the simple fact that I don't have empathy for the overwhelming majority of humanity (excluding people that are struggling somehow such as mental illness, physical illness, poverty, ETC), I have an overwhelming advantage in life. I could screw people over and cause a great deal of harm to those that I don't either consider to be "sufferers" and "outcasts" like myself or those who haven't showed people like me some kind of compassion somewhere and feel no guilt or remorse for it. That is strength in a society that is built around modern day Social Darwinism in the form of capitalism where those with wealth and power are considered the strongest of all human and nonhuman life alike.

I would make a fantastic villain or anti hero in fact. I already have a high score in dark triad personality traits (mainly machiavellianism where I scored in the top 98th percentile the last time I took the test). I am capable of being cunning and utterly ruthless when I need to be and I am also capable of doing a great deal of damage to the large group of people that I don't have empathy for if I felt like doing so would get me ahead in life in a significant way.

I simply refuse to be the poor, defenseless, starving, struggling child that I used to be and I also refuse to give somebody else the power to hurt me anymore and I will sink to any low to protect myself if necessary. Don't get me wrong, I would rather not be like this and one day would like to change, however, until I get to the point where I am well off enough to live a healthy, stable life where where I can start thinking about the future and improving myself rather than being stuck in the present fighting and struggling ever day, changing would put me at a disadvantage and I need every advantage I can get right now.

I am a lonely, empty person inside but I see loneliness and isolation as advantages of their own. It's clear that everybody that comes into my life abandons or hurts me somehow. That friend/case manage in that thread you referenced, my best friend of 7 years, the only female that ever thought I was attractive, more friends, my family; these are all people who have abandoned me when I needed them in the last 2-3 years alone. I have myself convinced that the reason why I have nobody anymore is because of the fact that I am not a benefit to anybody in my current state. I have nobody in my life and I am too much of a self centered empty person to be able to understand and care about other people to build friendships and relationships when I am so focused on myself and my own issues. Even if I did have a bunch of new friends or reconnected with some old ones, they would just abandon me anyways and the reason is likely because of how empty and selfish I've become. The only way that I think people will accept me and the only way some of these people could be reintegrated into my life is if I prove that I'm not a loser with no money, no car, and no income. If I can't be a good, caring person to people, I need to prioritize gaining wealth and power above all else so that people will think I'm useful and not abandon me anymore. I plan on blinding them with how "successful" I become, when in reality, I may sell my very soul so to speak for that in which I desire the most.

Anyway, I'm off to go plot world domination. One day, I might be able to become a real life villain or anti hero after all