Hi Zedsdead

I am sorry for everything you've been put through since you went back to him, and I know you went through a lot with him before you left last time

But it is really good that you are considering reaching out again and considering making that call (if you haven't already)

Even if he hasn't hit you, even if he hasn't been outright "nasty to you" (apart from the financial abuse) he has been emotionally/mentally abusive to you, and that should never be under-rated. As you know, I'd say that you deserve to be treated so much better than that, you deserve to be respected, to be valued, to have your feelings validated, to feel that you're cared about.

And you know that this is more than "just" a bad relationship deep down, right?!!
I know it can be real hard or horrible to face a situation as being abusive but you have kind of acknowledged it in being too scared to say anything to the police about the abuse and in being scared of the things to come if you did report it amongst other things..........

So please make that call, if you haven't already, and at least listen to what they have to say?

Alison