I think the issue is that we don't see you in person and cannot evaluate you or your exact issue. I think if someone can see and talk to you in person they can determine what's the issue. But you need to seek help.

I am sure if I told my therapist that I didn't leave my bed for two months, she'd take it seriously. If therapist isn't taking it seriously then your doctor should. Or vocational services or police or church etc et. Professionals can evaluate you in person. You seem to reject any ideas that we suggest.

I understand you are suffering and you were neglected as a child but you need to seek help in real life and right now please.