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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight
Also, something to explore with my T: Why I get weepy when someone says/does something nice/caring for me... Happens with some of the stuff MC and T have said/written to me, which I suspect is tied into paternal/maternal transference, so partly childhood stuff. Though it's not just that, because I think of the time a few years ago when a friend surprised me with a birthday gift in the mail and I just burst out in tears. I feel like normal people are like, "Aw, what a nice surprise!" but without the crying usually. Maybe it's that I'm not used to it? And/or that I feel unworthy?
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This happens to me too- I think it is both that I feel like I am utterly unworthy of the attention and good thoughts (any time a person did me a favor growing up, my mom would say "I hope you know they didn't have to do that for you and they really shouldn't have, and I hope you're grateful for it, you need to write them a note thanking them from the bottom of your heart so they don't think you're a spoiled brat etc etc") and also that I have the vague feeling that people just do things like this for each other and I missed out in a major way when I needed much more kindness than I got.