Unless I need services from the homeless shelter he now works at, I wouldn't be able to talk to him that much aside from maybe greeting him. Until I get to the point to where I can discharge myself from the public mental health center that I currently receive services from, I can't see him due to privacy laws and what not and I could get him in trouble if I do.

I can't afford any social coaches right now and I've tried many different kinds of free resources but nothing ever helps me.

I think it will be a long time before I am ready to talk to women. I have no confidence in myself, both because of all of the scarring and what not on my body, and because of the fact that I have neither a job, nor a car or even a license for that matter. I am working towards these things but it would likely take many months before I can get somewhere and it hurts that I won't have anybody for that period of time.

And no, I have no family to help me nearby. The only family that talks to me is my step father who lives 3 hours away and there is no way and hell I'm moving out there because I can't deal with all of the southern religious B.S that goes on in small towns in the South and Midwest in America considering I'm an atheist and all.

I'm trying to fight and endure every day but I feel like I'm nearing my breaking point if I haven't reached it already.