I'm not going to talk about this in too much detail for obvious reasons, however, I will say that by "caving in to the darkness" and "taking from society", I am referring to how easy it would be, thanks to my growing hacking knowledge, to scam big corporations and rich people without getting caught, especially since the Dark Web makes being a cyber criminal easier than it has ever been. I know I could do a lot of damage and make a lot of money without being caught and even if I did get caught, the worst thing that could happen is that I would have to deal with the inconvenience of going without my computer for several months while they perform digital forensics on it, in which they would find nothing because I know how to perform counter forensics on computers and digital data.

It would be easy for me to make five figures a month doing stuff like this and nobody would be able to stop me. I have been trying as hard as I can to live a decent life. I am trying to find a job and do the right thing for once in my life. I'm trying to be a good person so that I don't have to weave a web of lies and deceptions to protect myself and so people will one day love and accept me.

The more hurt I become, the harder it is becoming for me to control the urge to give in and live the lifestyle of a cyberpunk character where I screw people over to get ahead.