So to speak.
I spoke to many workers already and they did not say why I am struggling. They said I can talk fine and they would invite me out if it were them. But I am having difficulty connecting to people, not to mention difficulty knowing how to fill my time. I don't understand why these things keep happening. Even when I do meet up with someone, I have trouble making it "fun" it feels. Something other than just have a random chat.. And the strangest thing, if I get the opportunity it feels difficult to "deepen" the relationship. So it just goes nowhere sometimes.
I go to the shop and I just manage to say what I need. That's where any interaction stops. Maybe if I ask some other questions they will answer but it does not really "lead to" anything. I end up feeling lonely.