Hello moony: Well... my thought is that this is perhaps all something you should be talking about with a therapist... head it off at the pass, so to speak. Simply allowing all of this to continue to rattle around in your brain is, to my way of thinking, a prescription for trouble.

I see this is your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!