Got the results of my MRI today. The main things it showed was spinal stenosis from L4 to S1. I am 34 yeards old. My pain doc was a little shocked. I don't have any of the risk factors that would cause early onset, as far as we know. He's gonna try a different type of shot, that goes deeper than a normal ESI, scheduled in 2 weeks. If that doessnt do anything, it's on to the minimally invasive, outpatient surgery.

I'm starting to lose hope, liked really lose hope. I cannot stand to be in pain like this for the rest of my life. I can't keep going like this, I just can't. I dontf know how much longer I am willing to keep fighting, just to have more creap thrown at me. I also found out this week that I lost a significant amount of hearing in my right ear. I had the first shot of a course for that Tuesday. Hopefully they will only have to do three shots, and hopefully they work. I don't see why I should keep trying if my body wsantfs to just give up so bad. It's not fair.