Im sorry you feel this way, but Im with you.
I wake up with a horrific attitude and end up needing a few hours to get going and work three or so hours before crawling back to bed starting it all over with a long 6 hour nap and than trying to do three more hours of work.
So basically sleep 16 hours, work 6 and stare a few hours, in utter misery.
While Im working, I utter FMLs almost every few minutes as what I do is brainless.
But if I was healthy I would just knock off 6 - 8 hours straight and have more normal schedule.
Pretty much the most negative Ive ever gotten for such a long period of time, but manias have destroyed me and trying to stay out of them by being sober from my vices, Ill tell u sobriety is horrific for a bipolar as if the void is not filled positively there is hell to pay in the depression like I am.
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