I just came off a year mania. Ive had a pattern of these long manias the last 5 years or so and going totally delusional. Ive lost credibility with friends, former colleagues, and others all over the world.

I have acquired massive personal debt, with a good chunk to a friend. Ive had a lot of SI lately but feel this friend debt will keep me alive cause I can knock it off in a year to two if focused and keep from doing something to escape.