I think all of my thinking is skewed right now. There was a huge incident of verbal abuse 12 days ago that lasted for hours. Usually, this will be followed with a honeymoon period, but not this time. This time there have been almost daily assaults on my character. At least that's what it feels like to me. He paints me as an argumentative, abusive bully and I'm left feeling like the world's most unlovable person. I no longer have the ability to know if what he's saying about me is true. He also continually attacks me going to therapy by saying that I'm so gullible and socially inept that any time someone pays the least bit of attention to me, I'll believe anything they tell me, including that he's abusing me. Everyone is just telling me what I want to hear. That's just the tip of the iceberg of what he's said to me these last two weeks. It's been non-ending lately and I'm feeling completely overwhelmed and dealing with a lot of self-loathing. On top of that, I feel awful about being so dependent on my therapist that I've emailed him multiple times while he's on vacation. He said it was okay and we even had one Skype session, but I feel like such a burden.