This is an emergency situation; he has said he wanted to kill you..He said he wouldn't hurt you ,but he abuses you and wants to kill you..waiting is a mistake; women are killed every day in this country by a husband/partner; please dont be a statistic. When you are IN the situation, you are unable to see it for what it is. It is brainwashing, and your thinking is skewed. You shouldn't waste another minute in therapy.....the time is NOW to get out. Call the national domestic hotline; they will help yu make a plan to leave. Can you go somewhere and stay with someone NOW? Do you have enough money to go to a hotel? you can go to a shelter etc....I stayed for 31 years; so I understand all of the emotional stuff; you are numbed to the abuse. PLEASE, PLEASE do not wait, because it might be too late. In other words, it is like sitting in a burning house, and questioning whether you should leave. In other words, leave NOW and sort out everything else when you are safe and can think. This is where you will have to find the courage (and you can't depend on your therapist, or group therapy....and I wonder why they haven't told you that you should leave and how dangerous this is and helped you make a plan of escape)....and realize that this person is full of rage and anger and will never stop.....one sentence helped me to leave: "Try to let the side of you that is trying to save yourself.......win." You can pm me if you like (I am a moderator of an abused survivors group).