before she told me she was planning on leaving we talked about me living my truth and to what i want out of live and T. this had lead me to making a list of things i felt i needed to work on. i held on to it because i thought she would think it stupid and unattainable. way to much . then she informed me she was planning on leaving and it all just became unimportant . i know as usual i had wasted my time with a good therapist and now it is all going away. last week i had told her about the list and she said i could bring it in and give it To her . but i had warned her it is to much but she still wants to see it .is it stupid and to much .
1.gain confidence
not feel everyone hates me, not care if they do.
know and feel I am a good person.
to just be ok with my life and who I am.
to not fear interaction so much.
To realize that not everyone has selfish motives.
I,m not always a selfish spoiled brat.
2. deal with the issues around the mother
deal with the fact that she sucks.
to walk away from her and not feel like a horrible person.
to be able to just talk to someone about what went on, to
talk about the things that she did and how I feel about it .i
have never been able to do this but I just don’t want to feel so alone about it and it being such a big secrete.
To not have what went on be in my head all the time making
Me feel horrible and unable to deal .
3. to accept the fact that my whole family sucks .
stop trying to be what they want me to be.
Stop trying to please them.
To truly feel it isn’t me that is just a miserable failure in life
and unworthy of acceptance from any of them.
4. To talk about what happened with the baby sitter(cant even type it)
feel.
To not feel so humiliated and ashamed about it every time the thoughts enter my head and take over, I just want to hide
To truly feel it was not my fault and I was not the ***** the mother said I was.
5. How much I screwed up my brother’s life.
I feel like such a horrible person for the pain I caused him.
6. My husband and son
To know they love me.
To accept im a good mom and did the best I could
To know im not a piece of trash to my husband that I deserve him.
Again to be able to just talk about what went on and how it made me feel.