My biggest fear overall is losing my son. I'm pretty sure he's going to die in his early 20s (he's six now). I'm not sure why. I guess it's the trauma of losing my husband so suddenly. But any time he's sick with a routine virus or something I get terrified and have him sleep in my bed so I can be near him if something happens.

In terms of my illness I'm afraid I will impulsively kill myself. That will probably never happen as I've learned to get help before it gets that far but I'm still afraid one day I'll be so sick I won't ask for help. I can't leave my son an orphan.