one time when i was fifteen I was hospitalized for suicidal thoughts. I was pretty pissed off. This hospital didn't make you remove shoelaces or strings unless you were on precautions. So I had been there a couple of days and just wanted to ****ing die. So I took out my shoelace and started to strangle myself with it. I was trying to see what it would be like to die that way. But I was called for meds. So I stupidly brought the shoelace out with me. The nurse noticed and said "you better not take the other one out or I'll know what you're doing". Well at the time I was very anti authority and hated being told what to do, so I snapped. I told her she couldn't stop me and ran back to my room. I was followed by the big male nurse. He tried to talk me into coming into the lounge for awhile but I refused. He said if I didn't come willingly they would remove me from my room physically. I basically said just try it. So they called the other male tech and forcibly removed me from my room. I tried to fight but I was only 5'2 and 100lbs so obviously I was no match. They dragged me out and put me up against the wall, removed my bracelets and my glasses and shoved me in the quiet room. I proceeded to run around the quiet room and scream and yell about the injustice of it all for about an hour. Then I sat down and tried to bite through my wrist to get at my vein. I made a decent hole but because one of my front teeth is just bonded instead of real I couldn't do too much. Then they gave me Benadryl and I passed out.