Hi. I'm 22 years old and I need some help with a major problem that I've had over the last few months. There are characters that are amusement park mascots that I have a crush on that I found on the internet. They made me so happy whenever I think or search up anything about them.

I have a very strong emotional attachment to the mascots. They are ones of the only characters in media that can make me truthfully smile. Those characters are mascots and they are very adorable. Suddenly, I couldn't get enough of those characters. I wanted to get my own fursona with a fursuit and I wanted to go to the Amusement park in Japan where I can meet, take pictures, and hug them. They would glad to meet me here. Sadly, Is going to be hard by taking a lot of work & time by learning Japanese and looking for a job plus I going to cut off lots of stuff I buy like buying a new computer, TV, live streaming, video games & other entertainment I enjoy that are actually more important because it cost lots of money & time. And there is a possibility that it might be too late. I currently in technical college learning graphic design and currently living with my parents and I want to move in the future while looking for a job, but my obsession seems to be turning into a more difficult future for me.

As a result, I'm suffering with lovesick/depression because I love the characters so much that I want to to the theme park and hug them. They keep me looking for pictures on twitter, some Japanese web sites & watch videos on YouTube of them. I'm considering setting up a fundraiser on GoFundMe.com so I can afford a fursuit plus go to Japan and the amusement park. Also, please be aware that I have autism spectrum disorder.

For those wondering, the characters/mascots are Gato, Luna, Peato, & Morsa from the amusement park, Lagunasia.
I'm in love with Peato the most but Gato & Luna are also very cute. And yes, I'm a furry.