I feel better now. I've been stressing out over everything in my life. I have been dealing with finals for my summer semester in college on top of trying to find a job and dealing with my own mental health. I'm just scared of screwing up and losing my financial aid and getting dropped out because right now, I am extremely dependent on the resources that I earn there and losing them would make things overwhelmingly difficult for me right now.

My fears are irrational considering the fact that I'm making straight As right now but I am scared of doing badly since I still have poor time management skills and I live off caffeine and energy drinks because I struggle to get any sleep at night due to how overwhelmingly anxious and depressed that I am.

I know I said some scary things in this thread, but rest assured, I'm not plotting against society from the shadows or anything haha