Go anyway, MzJello, it's good "practice". There are lots of things that are difficult to do but that we wish we could make ourselves do so doing some that might actually be healthy/helpful is good practice for examples to use when we need to give ourselves a added incentive.

I make up stories when it helps me. T has a message to give before she goes away :-) Then I listen to see what I can use as a "message" that makes me glad I went. Something to think about while she's away? Something to anchor me while she's away, etc.