My finances are in disarray. I'm so close to paying off my lawyer to file bankruptcy and I'm about to get garnished which will throw my full payment off. That and I've been putting in whole bunch of hours in ot to get this paid and somewhat enjoy my summer, maybe meet some one and live life again. But no I'm going to be broke barely covering rent and my lawyer postponed. I'll get the money back once the bankruptcy goes through but might be few months now if that goes into effect soon. Why can't I win. I was hoping this is the year I'd break out. Year I have some friends over for football games, actually go to adult Halloween parties and have someone to be with New Years and finally not be alone. Maybe even a New Years kiss and not be alone . Was hoping to get back in school in fall and finish my degree.
Now I may not be able to get any of this done. I can't go out if I'm broke. I want to. I at least go to the park and try to run I go to the gym but this isn't enough. My past few paycheck only had few bucks for food and been getting by with McDonald's cheap stuff but nothing healthy. I'm trying to get back in shape and this too is getting impeded.
Bottom line
I'm a failure, alone ,broke and can't win. I'm defeated. I'm worthless.