I want to enjoy summer. It's been fn years since on boardwalk or in a date. One point I knew I was handsome but. Ow I'm huge and no. E wants to bb with me. This is so Focking frustrated and demeaning. I'm suffering for what. What fn incident did I do to suffer so much. I try to do good, never ,ean and if one of coworkers are struggling I felp. Never let my friends down when they need me. I don't sweat them with my issues. I'm f ux,omg 37.
I should be married with kids and a dog. Not living in an overpriced apartment by myself.

It was bad enough that went it binge of alcohol self hating and spending stuff after I hit rock bottom to feel better. That shift just put me worse I hate not going out st all. I want to meet people and not feel rejected or judged. I'm a good guy I swear I've dome nothing wrong I had bad hand dealt to me and it soiralex out of c trol.
And I have no picutrx of my good times xajse I hate how I look. I regret it I lost so much me,priest and have noting to re,e,near them by.

I'm nothing. I'm broken I'm hurt I'm tired of all this pain.