All of my life, I've been telling people if they've hurt me and they've always given me a reason why.

The last time i felt I needed to get away from someone like that was w/my dad. I went over to my parents house and asked my mom what she did while dad watched golf. I was joking.
Twenty minutes later he looked me in the eye and just out of the blue very seriously said that they really reconsidered having another child after me, because of how jacked up I was when I came out.

The next day my mom called and said that although he did say it kinda ugly and in a bad tone, that he didn't mean it and that it's because I'm critical and I always have been. It was a joke, I said. She defended him.

And that was when I was 33.

T's words hurt me, right after I opened up about how she hurt me the time before. She gave me a reason why she hurt me, but said it was unintentional. I don't trust her. I'm really not sure if I can do this or what's the point. Am I supposed to do it again? Tell her how she hurt me, only for it to be defended and then hurt some more?