I was looking at jobs earlier and in my desperation thought the only ones I might be able to do would be ones where I could hide away and not be seen by other people..
I think this goes back to not being accepted for who I was growing up. But now I'm ready and need to move on - so, I refuse to feel ashamed of myself anymore!
I'm not a bad person or 'less than' just because some morons didn't want me.. In fact, having been born even though my parents didn't want me just proves to me that
something, some power wanted me here
badly 
That's a nice thought..
I'm going to love myself from now on!!