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Old Jul 14, 2017, 08:13 AM
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Yes. My T basically admitted it, though she didn't use the actual word. At one point, she said she felt she had gotten too close to me and maybe couldn't see my situation objectively. Like she was afraid she wasn't helping because of it. It's much better that she admitted it, because it was right after she acted rather harshly to me in session, and I'd thought about leaving. She said that she had been trying to pull back some and overcorrected. I definitely still get maternal counter transference vibes from her, but it helps to know that she's aware of them too.

I'm pretty sure my marriage counselor, for whom I have fairly intense paternal transference, has some paternal countertransference, though he hasn't admitted it (not that I've really come out and asked him about it). The way he acts toward me, like he seems to almost want to "fix" me--focusing a lot on my personal issues in session, allowing individual outside contact, calling me earlier this week in response to a couple texts that I was really stressed about something medical... But then there have been some negative sides to it as well, where it feels like he's realized he's gotten too close and pulls back. And that's really hurt me a few times. (I won't go into all that now...)

With him, as I said, some of it is probably paternal (even though he's only 12 years older than me). But I also wonder if some of it is that he identifies with me. He's shared that he's had some of the same issues at me--anxiety disorder, issues with his father being emotionally absent, other stuff from childhood that has affected how he is as a parent (like overcompensating with his kids).

The good thing is that he's at least willing to discuss my transference for/attachment to him. He's very accepting and understanding of that and is trying to help me work through it (and we're making some progress, I think). He seems like a pretty self-aware therapist who has done a lot of his own work in therapy, so I imagine he's at least somewhat aware of and trying to manage any countertransference feelings toward me. I'm just not sure he'd admit them if I asked about it.
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