I'm so sorry but I'm in desperate need of some support and encouragement, I'm on a waiting list for therapy (very low cost government funded, hence the wait), I don't want to call a hotline, 'cause I'm not suicidal or anything, but just need some human contact....having trouble dealing with my broken heart after having to go 'no contact' with my son, things escalated and he was threatening me, police got involved, restraining order, their strong advice: to cease all contact, change my phone number, they did their part and I needed to do mine, and if I resumed contact, it would escalate even further and well, with possibly very dire outcomes, this is their experience. And I have done just that, i.e. changed my phone number, I feel like I've abandoned my son, left him 'out in the cold' to face the wolves, I just couldn't help him anymore, I have literally nothing left to give him and his family, they've drained me psychologically, emotionally and physically, and, financially, and still I feel guilty, what will become of them, I simply couldn't give them anything anymore, and I was abused, blamed, scapegoated, manipulated, lied to, attacked verbally, raged at, intimidated, and finally threatened.....after backing off from helping them so much a couple of months ago, then the fallout, my health was suffering as I could not take the toxic environment any longer......anyway, I'm tired of thinking about it, but, I just need some encouragement, please......