I never claimed she's abusive to me, but rather, that approach doesn't work for me. It nearly sent me over the cliff and unable to repair. It was a lucky break to encounter a kind stranger who actually "saw" me. But I won't get into that.

And yet, I do get the point you are making. I do.

She refuses to go into my wounding. I do that, myself, every night. I activate my own attachment system and dive into it as best I can to confront. She does not

She refuses. She believes I am not ready and I need to deal with the anxiety and panic first. I disagreed. I felt the panic and anxiety were th crux of the issue. Since we didn't meet eye to eye, I decided to try it myself

For the past three weeks, I have activated my attachment system every night as best I can. I'm no professional, obviously. But for three weeks I haven't had one panic attack

I'm not trying to argue anyone. I don't want to switch t's, but the trust and ability to feel vulnerable feel severed. I don't know what to make of it. I do value all responses and the time, effort, and sharing (of your own sorry) that I really am incredibly grateful.

I am glad to read all of them, but I'm answering from my phone. You guys are wonderful! Everyone!

Maybe of it, even a little, is because we argue like friends. I mean she had told me as much, that we'd be friends if I wasn't her client. It makes it a bit confusing.