I've been so anxious the past three nights - I have slept roughly 4 hours, from 4-8 am all those nights. I am in bed at 10 and lay awake for 6 grueling hours before I fall asleep. I make sure my room is dark, the house is cool, I even have soft ear plugs I put in since I'm sensitive to noise, chammomile tea, and I've tried taking my lorazepam and also natural sleep supplements (i.e., melatonin and the like). I've tried sleeping in and taking naps throughout the day, but I've never been able to nap and nothing seems to work.
Normally this wouldn't bother me, but tomorrow night my fiance and I are are going out of town and sleeping in a hotel with his parents and I NEVER sleep in hotels. Max sleep I've ever gotten in a hotel is like 3 hours. So now, I fear that if I don't sleep tonight, or that if I get 4 hours like I've usually been getting, I will be way too tired and sick on this trip. The upcoming night in a hotel also makes me nervous; I'm worried I will have almost gone crazy from sleep deprivation by the day after that! I am already too tired now to even function and don't know what to do. Is this seriously unhealthy? Will I lose my mind? How will I ever be able to survive this weekend? I called into work today because I'm too tired to think about anything clearly at this point and now I'm just worrying about the fact that I NEED to sleep tonight, and since I'm worrying about it so much, I just know I won't. How do I break this cycle?