I do follow up but sometimes I am not "feeling it" and do it out of duty. Often the other person talks more and I just state the "general things" when I talk. Sometimes we meet, I could just be quiet and be pleased they are there with me even though silent, but you have to talk and I must force myself to talk. I feel anxiety when not talking (when I feel alone), worried when talking because it's like I'm cut off and must actively try to make a connection, anxious when I'm eating, about anything I do if I'm doing it right, worried when I'm walking, etc. etc. I even worry about sleeping because it's a nightmare that I'm so disconnected. And I never get to "closeness" with someone. If at least I knew what the issue is. If somebody said "you're a nasty person" at least I would know what to fix.
I might have interests. As said I was left on my own mostly and I did whatever I did, no questions, few ideas ... I was not treated with any empathy either, just forced and inappropriate "kindness" (like saying "it will be ok" when I feel awful instead of worrying, asking why or even doing anything about it). And just being treated like an autist and like it's normal.
I am thinking about it a lot but it is because it is an issue.
And yes ... it does not help that I do NOT know what to do in my free time???
Sometimes I pray it would end.