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Originally Posted by BBB2
I feel guilty for even considering it! But, I might do it...
It's something to do with work. I've had this dropped on me at the last minute. Most people probably wouldn't have a problem with it, but I do. I need more time to build myself up for things. If I do it I'll have responsibilities, hiding in the toilets won't be an option.
I don't have to do it. But, I'll have to give a good reason.
Don't know what to do. I know I should push myself out of comfort zone, but there will be no where to hide if things become too much. I need to have more control.
I feel like such a bad person. Devious and unreliable and lazy.  |
Yes. I have extreme anxiety and try to avoid my triggers whenever possible so I have lied to get out of things in the past. The feeling of getting out of something initially causes pure joy and bliss and an immense sense of comfort, but later I am always crippled by regret and saddened that I was dishonest for my own benefit yet again. I have said anything from being ill or having an appointment to saying there was a family emergency (when really the only emergency was the anxiety in my head).